Here is a vulnerable post that I hope at least someone can relate to….
I recently went on vacation.
I began the week in probably the best shape of my life.
I was confident and ready to start my vacation.
I saw family I hadn’t in a while and everyone was telling me how skinny I looked and I was loving it BUT…
I also felt super uncomfortable and self conscious. I felt horrible in a 2 piece bathing suit. I made my mom take pictures of me in those bathing suits because I thought “maybe when I see myself in the picture, I’ll feel differently”. I took selfies in different lighting, different clothes on, anything, just to make me feel like I did before.
Nope. I felt worse.
Body dysmorphia is a real thing. I lost over 40 pounds. I went from a L/XL to a XS/S. I see my body continuously changing. But I still feel like the “big” girl. I still look at each piece of my body and tear it apart.
I’m learning every day how to make myself better and how to adjust my thinking and mindset to love my body.
I’m not writing this to get attention and for people to tell me “you look good”, “you’re skinny”, etc. I just want people to realize what other people are going through. Realize that although that girl in the bikini looks great, she feels terrible, and the girl in the one piece bathing suit looks terrible, she feels great. Realize that everyone has different views on body image and self love. Realize that some of us are working hard to get where we want for ourselves but we can’t always get there overnight.
Give people credit and show them compassion.
It’s okay to have whatever kind of body you have. It’s okay to want to change it. It’s okay to love your body. It’s okay to work towards whatever goal you have in mind. Just focus on you, your body, and your health (mind and body), and keep going.
Even though after this vacation, I feel terrible about my body, it doesn’t mean I’m going to give up and just quit. This is a stepping stone. This launches me forward. I realize what I did right vs. wrong. (Food, exercise, lack thereof, etc.) I understand why I feel the way I feel. I understand that my body is pretty amazing to change the way it has and I know that I’m no where near done.
This vacation, while tough (body image-wise), I realize that it’s only helping me get stronger, better and closer to my goals!
Never ever give up. Keep going!
I recently went on vacation.
I began the week in probably the best shape of my life.
I was confident and ready to start my vacation.
I saw family I hadn’t in a while and everyone was telling me how skinny I looked and I was loving it BUT…
I also felt super uncomfortable and self conscious. I felt horrible in a 2 piece bathing suit. I made my mom take pictures of me in those bathing suits because I thought “maybe when I see myself in the picture, I’ll feel differently”. I took selfies in different lighting, different clothes on, anything, just to make me feel like I did before.
Nope. I felt worse.
Body dysmorphia is a real thing. I lost over 40 pounds. I went from a L/XL to a XS/S. I see my body continuously changing. But I still feel like the “big” girl. I still look at each piece of my body and tear it apart.
I’m learning every day how to make myself better and how to adjust my thinking and mindset to love my body.
I’m not writing this to get attention and for people to tell me “you look good”, “you’re skinny”, etc. I just want people to realize what other people are going through. Realize that although that girl in the bikini looks great, she feels terrible, and the girl in the one piece bathing suit looks terrible, she feels great. Realize that everyone has different views on body image and self love. Realize that some of us are working hard to get where we want for ourselves but we can’t always get there overnight.
Give people credit and show them compassion.
It’s okay to have whatever kind of body you have. It’s okay to want to change it. It’s okay to love your body. It’s okay to work towards whatever goal you have in mind. Just focus on you, your body, and your health (mind and body), and keep going.
Even though after this vacation, I feel terrible about my body, it doesn’t mean I’m going to give up and just quit. This is a stepping stone. This launches me forward. I realize what I did right vs. wrong. (Food, exercise, lack thereof, etc.) I understand why I feel the way I feel. I understand that my body is pretty amazing to change the way it has and I know that I’m no where near done.
This vacation, while tough (body image-wise), I realize that it’s only helping me get stronger, better and closer to my goals!
Never ever give up. Keep going!
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